THE WAIT!!

UUGGHHH!! I am NOT a patient person. I know that I should be bc God says not to worry about tomorrow. I'm not worried about tomorrow, I just want it to hurry and be time for us to go and get our Zoey! I am praying every night that this process is fast..like really fast. I want to defy alll the "stats" and get my stuff done sooo much earlier than the numbers say. I guess that's mean bc everyone else wants the same thing, but when I have to wait over something that I have NO control over, I OBSESS!!! I can't find enough things to do. If I'm not at home, I ck facebook and email on my phone for messages and/ or updates! I wonder what she's doing, is she well, is she having a great time where she's at, all these things. I'm her mom and I feel I have the right to feel this way. It's just like going on vacation without your kids...you miss them and want to know how they are. This is a little worse bc I can't just "come home" and hug her and love on her. I have missed all of her first two year "firsts!" Things like this hurt my feelings. If she's been sick, it hurts my feelings bc I couldn't help her. I know she's being taken care of and I am sooo thankful for that, but there's nothing like a mom's love, ya know! Anyway, I'm just having a hard time with this wait and it's alot more, but I will be ok. Please just pray that it goes fast! I don't know when I will have my LID date or my LOA, but I am praying they are both in my hands by August! A far fetch, but I can pray!!! Thanks for listening to my rambling! :)